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Saturday, June 12, 2004 [[*i dreamt of a fool's fool...and now the fool is me]]


Had EXCO nominations in the morning today. They will first choose the top twelve leaders and let the leaders choose amongst themselves the positions they want. Frankly I don't think I can get the post I want. At this rate, I'm worried I can't even get into EXCO...ah...screw it all.

::echoes::

Just listening to Elan Atias's Slave to Love. Was just reflecting on my life, and the way things aren't going the way I want them to. Heck, I can't remember a time when things did go the way I wanted them to. Council stuff: EXCO wise doesnt look very pretty. Studies: Just can't seem to start studyingin earnest...I'm gonna fuck up my mid years. How cool is that? Personal: My family troubles may have coem to a close...I don't know yet..this 'war' has been raging for so long, it's so hard for me to believe it's over, or is it really? And I find that in other areas, I'm a real good illusionist. I've spun a web of lies so brilliantly concocted by myself that I've fooled even myself. Especially myself. I've trapped no one but myself. I can probably console myself that I'm a fool: a romantic fool who never learns from his mistakes, but truth be told, in reality, that doesnt help me much right now. I feel so many conflicting emotions, all equally strong, all tugging at me, feelings of hate, feelings of anger, feelings of disgust, feelings of liking. I need to get myself sorted out soon, before I do something stupid, before I tear myself to bits because of this. I guess I'm just...lost. And contrary to what some people think, I don't have it all, okay?


`donovan. |10:02 PM|