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b) bored
c) trying to practice your reading skills
d) jeremiah marvelling at his genius
e) a retard who doesn't realise the symbols on the left are links

Thursday, March 03, 2005 [[]]


howdy folks. haha, yup, you can tell, i'm in a fairly good mood today. haha, though i'll gather i really shouldnt be in such a mood, cause i think i just got F for math CT. haha, but what the hell, it's only CT and screw it all. so predicted results for my CT:

GP: B3
Econs: F (remember my 4 line essay stunt? haha)
Math: F
Lit: D, maybe.

anyways, let's get on to why i'm in a better mood now! went out after interviewing prospective facils until 2.30pm with pido, the black (i.e. gughan) and olsen to play DotA and CS and generals. haha, i didnt play real LAN for so long le. (sorry louis, playing computer at your place for free doesnt count as LAN, haha.) anyway, the point was, playing with them and some j1s, i finally felt, eerm, how to put it, free? weird huh, lan = freedom. but ya, i guess it just kinda reminded me of my own j1 life and the time beforei had any responsibilities to fulfill and events to organise. and the mega stress-ness of the whole situation when everything happens at a bad time together. studies, common tests, council work, complicated knots in friendships to untie. all just came together and blew up in my face earlier this week. wowee, and now that i've the freedom of knowing i failed all my common tests, and after relieving some stress blasting ppl apart, haha. i feel better. i feel less conscious. i feel also, by my last post of just doing whatever i want already, that i feel more free. ya, somehow. it's great i dont have to care anymore. at least for now. soo, altogether now, let's heave a sigh of relief.

sigh.

i'm not mad at you. ok, maybe i am. but dont take it to heart. that was during the peak of the exam when i had to organise 4 different council things to-do on friday AND try to study a hell lotta shit for the first time for the exam. AND i had no mood to do so. i'm over-reacting to everything around me. and that includes you. but about you doing what you want and i'll do what i want, i meant that. i feel so much damned freer now. maybe in the future, things might get better again. like they used to. anyway, i can see you dont need to deal with me now. i'm not worth your time nor effort. don't think you should bother now anyway, you still have physics and him to occupy/worry yourself over. i gather you're very pissed from what joshua said yesterday online when i asked the reason for your entry. maybe i really should not pass msgs back and forth, each time i do that only seem to aggravate the situation, not help it.


so till the time comes, i dunno when, when you feel better. and not so weird. and not so busy. and not so dao, if ever you are. lemme know. and till then, don't stay angry or sad. you know he bloody doesnt mean it as it says. he just wants this over with. as with me.

good luck for your tests and Godspeed.

_{P.S j=13 pts is right. and he's staying.}


`donovan. |9:29 PM|