if you're reading this, you're either
a) visiting this blog for the first time
b) bored
c) trying to practice your reading skills
d) jeremiah marvelling at his genius
e) a retard who doesn't realise the symbols on the left are links

Tuesday, June 28, 2005 [[]]




haha, because someone cant teach me how to use photoshop i experimented with resizing, layering and shading things transparent myself. looks horrible i'm sure, but i'll improve. yeah. at the expense of my mid years. shit, i've the whole econs and maths syllabus to cover in 2 days and i havent started on anything... crap-o. =(

i'm going nuts too! wooohoooo, Fs here i come. sigh.. and, that, too.


`donovan. |6:05 PM|

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music's good. it's the one thing i find i can express myself fully in, playing the piano, having fun with my guitar or just listening to songs. the countless times i've blogged lyrics down is already evidence. i don't know what i'll do with out my ipod mini, probably kill myself i guess.

<sub>daylight on my shoulder
makes me feel alive
you kept me standing in your shadow
and it's a cold cold place to hide

im running away from this messed up place
im breaking free, yeah yeah

im tired of staring at the sun
cant stand the way you put my eyes so I cant see
stealing every breath I breathe
you push me into overdrive
and I dont need this kind of light cause now im done
you took everything while I was staring at the sun

i know you wont leave me
but just turn and walk away
you tie me up you kick me around
trying to kill my dreams and break me down
but I wont hang around

I'm running away from this messed up place
I'm breaking free, yeah yeah

daylight on my shoulder
i know its time to run
yes I know its time to run</sub>



i'm strong today. these few days. i know i can hold on, to the small sane reality i've managed to make for myself. i dont need you. i can live without you.


i hope.


`donovan. |10:49 AM|

Wednesday, June 22, 2005 [[]]


woo. firstly, 'we believe' is quite an uplifting song, just what i need to confirm my existence here as well as the shit that happens. mmm, nice. oh and i've things to say, rather contemplative ones, but i shan't bore you, as yet. tonight's entry is dedicated to pido's artistic skills. and his program he kopped from somewhere to design magic cards.

he designed this card for me. mmm, it's quite.. funny. ah well. oh and he's making more of these if you wanna personlise one for yourself. 3 bucks he says. mmm..





`donovan. |11:40 PM|

Tuesday, June 21, 2005 [[]]


<sub>here's a woman crying out tonight
her world has changed
she asks God why
her only son has died
and now her daughter cries
she can't sleep at night

downtown
another day for all the suits and ties
another war to fight
there's no regard for life
how do they sleep at night
how can we make things right?
just wanna make this right

we believe

we are all the same
human in all our ways and all our pain
[so let it be]
there's a love that could fall down like rain
[let us see]
let forgiveness wash away the pain
[what we need]
and no one really knows what they are searching for
[we believe]
this world is crying for so much more

we believe</sub>


`donovan. |10:37 AM|

Sunday, June 12, 2005 [[]]


wow. i cant believe the perks they have at the airport man. like, tax free goods, enough of them to make any girl suffering from retail therapy withdrawl symptoms go nuts. and, like sparkling toilets. and free telephone calls. and free internet for me. to stand here. hogging the counter. and blog.

wow. now i know where taxpayers' money goes. oh, i'm flying off to kuching. to see my relatives, people i haven't seen for ages. well, ok nearly ages. for a couple of years now. and to see my 3 cousins, one of them recently born. can you imagine that? when i'm 36, he'll be 18. so that means just as he's getting into hanging out with friends, pool, movies, music, computer games and dabbling with a relationship i probably would already be working a stable job and married. scary shit huh.

anyways, won't be back till wednesday night. don't miss me people.. and i promise to buy something back for my closer friends k? =)

see ya.




_{- no hero in her sky; i can't take my mind off you
damien sure got it right.}


`donovan. |7:24 PM|

Saturday, June 11, 2005 [[]]


hmm. tonight's fun cause i'm blogging at khai's house at 4am in the morning, after going out for supper at 3am. crossing roads illegally and shit. haha, funny stuff cause we saw the lights were red for the car so we thought hey, let's just cross la. then the light for the car turned green and a car was waiting to go so we had to run! this shit happened twice man.. lol. and we've watched like half of star wars ep3, full metal jacket and harold and kumar go to white castle. funny stuff.. =) should do this more often.. khai also has a truckload of DVDs.. must borrow sometime..


`donovan. |4:03 AM|

Friday, June 10, 2005 [[]]


you know. singaporeans are a crazy lot. they place so much emphasis on grades, on your job, on how much money you have, whether you have a good looking girlfriend/boyfriend, how nice your house looks, how nice you are to your social acquaintances (by which i dont mean friends, i mean people you socialise with and probably will never see again until you need a Get-out-of-Jail-Free card) and so on and so on. i'm pretty tired of it all. this problem of image, of face is precisely what's keeping our society behind.

business: how many businesses will not dare to take unwarranted risks even if the amount they stand to lose is little? it's all about investor confidence, image of your brand name and shit. do you really think this will encourage innovation and entrepreneurs singapore? please, you cannot 'teach' people to be entrepreneurs, there are no set skills of competencies to learn. you cannot train people to be risk-takers the way you train students to pick up chinese so that they will be able to compete in the global market. if you do not drop this attitude of importance of image and stop being so timid, singapore will never succeed as an entrepreneural state.

grades: you know the reason why we have so much stress at school? why kids at 15 years old are not learning about life and how to enjoy being alive and having fun? why they are slogging away at their cca so that they can get minus 2 points for their L1R5, why they are studying 9, no in fact the trend now is 10! 10 subjects. with an extra language like german! because in the famous words of a young girl in the papers recently, you have to stand out from your peers if you wanna succeed in life. they are being so damn pressured that they even have to adapt and find joy in pure academic work! how much of a life do you seriously think these children will have. yeah yeah, she also chats online alot, gets involved in church activities, and get this, does homework for leisure?! except for the homework for leisure part, she's basically subscribing to the social norm. if she doesnt do any of these, she's not 'competitive' in today's market. she has to squeeze in only 4 hours of sleep a day because her schedule doesnt allow her otherwise. that is just plan. stupid. how can you expect me to have respect for someone who does only that? what happened to appreciating the arts? what happened to spending just quality time, doing nothing, with your family? what happened to taking it easy on the books so that you can enjoy your childhood more? oh i'm sorry i forgot ya. homework's supposed to be leisure now! seriously, what can you expect from such children as they grow up to be youth and later working men and women? they will produce results, yes. they will keep the economy going maybe even booming, yes. but they will be pieces of social shit. they will only know how to put work first. they will only know how to interact in the work place. they will suck being family members. they will suck as parents. they will probably overwork themselves and die young. is this worth it? for what, the 5 Cs? wakeup your bloody idea singapore. get a life. grades aren't everything. are you in it for the education? or just for the certificate you get so that you can get your 120, 000 dollar salary a year. when you die, you take nothing with you. ashes to ashes, dust to dush ok.

relationships: why does everyone go around looking for like the best looking guy/girl and hitch up to the person? alot of us have beautiful characters, and looks aren't everything. singaporeans are so damn shallow it sickens me. how many of you will cross marry? ok, maybe that's too ambitious for you. how many of you will marry someone of a total different character in several aspects? just for the challenge of working things out (ok, of course must first love each other la). you're not an adventurous lot, face it. you guys simply do not take risks, you love your couch in your comfort zone too much. and why? because again, it's all about image. if you take a boyfriend/girlfriend who looks pretty damn good, of course you wont stand out as someone weird. people will admire you and maybe even seek to emulate you. i mean, of course when looking for someone, you have to have the basic physical attraction at first. however, everyone goes for the usual guy/girl. the couples come out looking factorystamped. i'm serious. go out. and look around in town. the guys have spiked hair. wear poser pants. look handsome. and the girls have brown hair more often than not, look good and wear short skirts. and where will you find those who stand out? those who do not fit into the ready image of the bgr? at arcades, pool tables, LAN centers, watching movies alone or with another group of misfits, or probably more often than not, at home. alone. stop placing so much emphasis on factory stamped looks and characters people. it's damaging and sick.

see that advertisement by that stout company? i don't recall what it was, maybe ABC stout. anyway. the guy goes on about beingsuccessful in life. and he links it with "get that boat, get that girl, get that house, get that car...etc" stop being so materialistic. enough of image. enough of all this bullshit. life aint about work-so-you-can-get-a-high-salary, life aint about marrying or going out with a human showpiece, life aint about face. life is about reaching out to a social misfit and becoming his/her best friend and making all the difference. life is about knowing when to study, when to relax. life is about true friends, not those who are fair-weathered. life is about family. live life. before you feel death's touch and you realise what a bloody waste your life's been, hankering after things that do not really matter at all in the end.

sigh, enough bitching. think i'll relax now by doing some homework.


`donovan. |10:51 AM|

Tuesday, June 07, 2005 [[]]


Hey, are you lonely?
Has summer gone so slowly?
We found the ground,
but that damage was done.
It's cold as you fade into the sun.
Where'd you go? To me?
But you're alive!
Well, it's only
fallen frames, they told me.
You stand out, it's so loud...
and so what if it is.
It's cold when you fade into the wind.
Where'd it go to?

So what if you catch me,
where would we land?
In somebody's life
forsaking his hands.
Sing to me hope as she's
thrown on the sand.
All of your works
are rated again.
Where to go?

You know I love you.
You know I love you .
I want you oh so much.

It's so fair.

When I was sure you'd follow through,
My world was turned to blue.
When you'd hide
your songs would die,
so I'd hide yours with mine.

And all my words were bound to fall.
I know you won't fail...
see, I can tell...

-//fair.remy.zero


`donovan. |10:47 PM|

Monday, June 06, 2005 [[]]


You scored as Form II: Makashi. After Form I's proliferation as a saber combat technique, Form II or "Way of the Ysalamiri," came about as a means of lightsaber-to-lightsaber combat. It is described as being very elegant, powerful, and requiring extreme precision. The blade manipulation required for this form is very refined and requires much focus, but the results are extremely powerful.

Count Dooku, from Star Wars: Attack of the Clones, has mastered Form II to the highest degree, fighting with the precision built into the ancient technique.

Form II: Makashi		67%
Form V: Shien		56%
Form VI: Niman		53%
Form VII: Juyo/ Vaapaad		53%
Form III: Soresu		42%
Form IV: Ataru		22%

Which Lightsaber form would you use?
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`donovan. |10:24 PM|

Thursday, June 02, 2005 [[]]


Tapestry is Back!

Perform at Orchard Road this August for a worthy cause!

If you like to sing, dance, jam, mime, juggle or conjure magic, we like! We are looking for the:

· Vocally gifted (solo/group singing, acapella, rap… you know, words in a rhythm and melody?)
· Musically talented (well… bands with the desire to jam hard for a good cause)
· Sleek moving bodies (modern, hip-hop, breakdance; dances of all other genres are very much welcome)
· Culturally inclined (Ensembles, symphonic bands, opera, Chinese Orchestra, you know...)
· Artistic individuals (creative acts like mime, puppetry, clowning!)

As long as you have talent, we want you! Sign up for auditions now, and before you know it, you may be at Orchard, doing your thing, busking in the limelight…

For more information on how apply to perform at Tapestry, http://www.tapestry.cjb.net is the place to go! Registration is free.

Closing date is 11th June 2005.

About Us: Tapestry is a gloriously entertaining busking event organised by the High-Five Youth Program of the Central Singapore Community Development Council and supported by Hark Music. Each year, like the past 3 years, we showcase the very best of performing acts in the Singapore youth scene in the name of charity. Proceeds collected during busking will be donated to a worthy beneficiary.

So join us in our cause and be part of Tapestry 2005!

Any queries? Email us at thetapestryteam@yahoo.com. We promise to say hi!


`donovan. |7:04 PM|