if you're reading this, you're either
a) visiting this blog for the first time
b) bored
c) trying to practice your reading skills
d) jeremiah marvelling at his genius
e) a retard who doesn't realise the symbols on the left are links

Saturday, August 20, 2005 [[]]


there's something about being stuck in a coffeeshop across the road, trees rustling and coolwind blowing showers of rain into the sheltered area, sipping hot tea, thunder coming crashing down in rhythm to corrinne may's free. peace. wind. the total feeling of living in the past, living up the feelings of the past, feeling the yearnings, the urges, the emotional tugging...

...and letting go. letting it flow past. mmmm.

i can be free.


i see the morning glory
it winds upon the tree
it tells the untold story of how things were meant to be
you saw the universe
caught up in desperate dreams
you came and changed the ending
changed it to save my fate
you led the revolution
you left your legacy
embraced the struggle
in the face of mortality
i know i'm not alone in this
help me believe

i can be free
i can be free from this place
beautiful healer
beautiful grace
help me to see
everything fall into place
wake me from dreaming
no more deceiving
break these chains

it's still the same old story
this great divide
between the want and waste
and all the hunger inside
i heard the news today
now i'm trying to find my place
i'm just a single voice
what can i do to erase

all this misunderstanding
all this anarchy
six degrees of separation
sometimes it's so hard to see
that we are not alone in this
i need to believe



now i understand. six degrees of separation.

`donovan. |2:03 PM|

Sunday, August 14, 2005 [[]]

Today's Forecast

You're faster than lightning and twice as bright. Use this brilliance to move something out of your way that everyone else thinks is permanent. Do it again if you have to prove your point.

lol, friendster may be quite lame and stupid sometimes, but this at least for once seems applicable. i've already moved my whiny, eternally depressed, unable-to-move-on self outta the way. now i'm gonna be nicer to others, even people i don't know or like, and be less vulgar. i can change.

`donovan. |3:09 PM|

Wednesday, August 10, 2005 [[]]

i've surprised myself. i haven't cursed for over a couple days now. no vulgarities whatsoever. hope i can break the habit, it's a bad one to have, especially when you're out in public and you shoot off your mouth. unlike some other people i just talked to today, who's like the old me, shooting off vulgarities in every sentence and using caps to shout online when i didn't even provoke anything. ah well, what can i say, i've got better control over my temper and mouth nowadays.

and since when have i flouted s paper in your face, or people's faces? if i did it, it was only out of talk-cock-like fun. i hate putting people down, because like i said before in the previous entry me and miah feel like shit when people ignore/make fun of us at our expense/put us down. if you choose to think i'm an arrogant prick, after all this while i've known you, all i can say is, i'm pretty sad la. some people's mind set so volatile, dunno when can joke with him or not. if i crack a joke and poke fun and that results in laughter, good times then. if not i might just get a bomb exploding in my face, like today. hai.

so i didn't study for math mid years. i never said i did. and i got 18 upon 100. so yeah, don't misquote me. and i'm no dell marie butler whose lit's so good. so what if i take s paper? it just means i enjoy and have a flair for the subject, don't mean i have to score above everyone else. and if you think so, then my reply is not everyone is perfect, and maybe i shouldn't have been nominated for it lo. no need to strike out at me. and maybe i've lousy willpower, always dota-ing. sorry la, my life to screw up right, not yours... it's just a question, if you don't wanna come along then don't la. at least i bothered to ask you since i thought you were my friend and a potential playmate (eh wait, that didn't come out right, haha).


whatever man.

Promises - Matchbook Romance

What would you say if I asked you not to go
To forget everyone, forget everything and start over with me
Would you take my hand and never let me go
Promise me you'll never let me go

And now the stars aren't out tonight,
But neither are we to look up at them
Why does hello feel like goodbye?
These memories can't replace,
These wishes I wished and dreams I chased
Take this broken heart and make it right

I feel like I lost everything when you're gone
Left remembering what it's like to have you here with me
I thought you should know,
You're not making this easy

I never thought I'd be the one to say
Please don't, well please don't leave me

I feel like I lost everything when you're gone
Left remembering what it's like to have you here with me
I thought you should know,
You're not making this easy

I'll fall asleep tonight, 'cause that brings me closer to you

`donovan. |4:52 PM|

Sunday, August 07, 2005 [[]]

i can't believe that i've been so down the past few months that today when i started greeting people with exclamation marks and more 'hahas', people started asking is this donovan or someone else! some even said it was freaky... omg.

well all i can say is i guess i feel free. gotten over already! yay. actually, it's been this way for some past few weeks already, but just that i guess today i totally feel free and over it. must be the 80 bucks earphones dad got for me today... haha, thanks pop. =)


well, had a talk with miah today online. we may look like we can take a joke, but turns out both of us break down or wanna reply back with heat when ppl suan or doolan us. just that we don't. because it's for everyone's betterment. better to go home and cry in the shower or shout along to angry power chords in the bedroom than to let it out there and then. i found out that i wasn't the only insecure person around. i'm not alone in feeling weird or left out when people don't call me out to go out or just say hi and talk to me. mmm like he said "we're all fighting the same big battle". too true too true. see ya on wednesday on the dota battlefield miah. may the best man win. =)

alright, better go maximise studying time these holidays while i can... bye bye people.

`donovan. |11:50 PM|

Friday, August 05, 2005 [[]]

mmmm.

*dark bus rides home, looking out the window.
*crazy danny shuffling on the floor in far east to charge himself up electrostatically to zap people.
*crazy danny unzipping pants and lifting skirts of mannequins.
*crazy danny.
*spastic james, just being himself.
*copying the entire econs mock from james.
*redoing my blog design to something less frilly.
*reshaping my attitude to get rid of useless thoughts.
*realigning my life to necessary goals for now.
*trying to fill that void in my chest, still.

i won't pass these up for the world.

`donovan. |11:00 PM|

Tuesday, August 02, 2005 [[]]

oh gawd. now im bag and i am blind, unaber to smell and taste. i hab de fru. i am sneezing so bad dad my eyez ar watering and my noze iz stug. my jore throat stop me from eating anything.


*ahhh-chooo. ahhh-chooo.*


dis suz. hep me i gawd de fru.

`donovan. |7:47 PM|