Tuesday, September 27, 2005
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alright. you know that games have progressed with society, when the games start having, eerm, creative endings. lemme explain myself.
it used to be a novelty you know, just to play a game. perferably a hack-and-slash one. then years ago, they decided to introduce romances into the RPGs, to make it more realistic. i suppose my first encounter with this was in Baldur's Gate 2. alright, but the game featured in the picture, now that game's called Jade Empire. it's a fairly new release, not the latest but yeah. and it's for xbox. but that's not the interesting part. the interesting part is that in this game, there are romances. but not as you think. i mean, you can play as a male or female protagonist yeah? and if you're male you can romance this female Non Player Character who's the princess of the chinese empire. and if you're female you can romance this male guy whose wife died shortly after giving birth to a daughter, who was subsequently taken and killed by bandits. the father lost track of the killers and vowed vengeance against evil (erm, duh. very predictable la) alright.
that's all well and good don't you think? sounds pretty normal to me. ah hah! but here's where the deviations start to appear. apparently, while i was playing a male and romancing the princess, some of her conversations were, eerm, quite open in nature. almost 'kinky' if you will. so i experimented. i used a female character, and yes, i romanced the straight princess into a lesbian. like omfg.
lol.
apparently, the male character could also have the option of romancing the male NPC. haha! which is, abit the sick. i mean, lesbians are tolerable, but gays in my opinion are.. off-limits. but this just goes to show how the games are reflecting the changing times. and well, can you imagine the lil kids playing this who are way younger than me? i don't know whether to laugh or to shudder man.
anyway, just outta curiousity, since each romance path as well as light or dark side path has different epilogues for each character at the end of the game, i'm just gonna pick the evil male homo. just for fun. lol. seeing that i already finished the evil female lesbian path.
=)
i'm not sick. just, curious to see the lame ass epilogue. and to see how ridiculous the romance conversation options can be. lol.
i gotta get an xbox. after the As.
`donovan. |9:58 PM|
Friday, September 23, 2005
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awright!
exams.
are.
over.
as.
of.
now.
lol. yeah i know i lag la. but what to do, i'm taking one of the most useless papers on earth: lit s. would you believe it, i was the only one who sat through the whole paper till the end. and like since there are 3 people in the whole cohort taking lit s, one of them's in hospital from food poisoning, and the other is taking econs s too and couldnt be bothered about lit s, so she didnt finish the paper today and walked out halfway. waah. so since the chem s people finished at 4.30 they left early when i had my solo paper till 5. so sad huh. and kb ong, you pay man.
"chem s paper students, please do not make so much noise as you go out of the class. please don't disturb the lit s student
taking the exam"too much. tai guo fen. anyway. today was cool man. alot of funny stuff. first, miah asked me to meet him after his physics s in the morning. so i woke up and rushed down at 11.15. just when i reached and saw shufang and cheryl (who were not looking very approachable to say hi to, lol look so stoned) in the foyer he was coming down with eddie, wan nok, terry amd kai pin screaming
let's go play dotaaaa. naturally i looked at him like he was crazy la. what to do. went along with them. can't believe i dragged myself out of bed earlier than i needed to for that bullshit. and along the way to coronation plaza, i left my bag on the 151. good game man.
lol was joking that i hope police won't arrest me for leaving my bag on the bus. later they think it's a bomb. anyway, so i went for lit s. with no books. with no stationary. again. (what's with me, literature papers and no pens ah? sian man.) yep. had a good game, despite terry using his teammates as meat shields. won all. then went back the paper. only to have kb ong pawn me.
after the paper followed miah out for dinner at kent ridge, the terminal station for the 151. along the way, there was this american school asshole. he tap the ez link twice then the reader sounded the error sound. then he simply sat down in front. and miah was like 'eh that fella never pay. what the hell la.' i felt real dulan. so know what i did? i took out 55 cents and walked in front and tapped him on the shoulder.
'eh kid. do you need 55 cents?'
he answered in his american accent like he was damn big shot.
'huh?'
'you didn't pay. i saw that.'
'oh yeah. cause my card has no money and i had no cash. only notes.'
'since you're too poor. i'm
giving you 55 cents to pay.'
'oh.'
he then walked up to pay then on the way back said 'hey thanks man'. oblivious to the social embarassment i just dished out to him in front of the other passengers. haha, yeah i lost 55 cents. but it was a worthy investment to feel good and have a good laugh at his expense. please la, no money at least ask some other people for change. you have notes right? stupid ang moh wanna-be. still in that colonial mindset thinking that Singapore belongs to you.
once i reached the bus terminal, the bus uncle pawn me again. he said to me 'eh you the one who left the bag ah?' (i called the terminal up to claim ownership see, so they won't think i'm some terrorist.) then i said ya. he said 'haha don't do that again la.' i told him 'don't worry uncle, no bomb inside.' LOL.
so yeah. the adventures of donovan for one day. phew. whoever would have thought the day of my lit s exam be so entertaining. =)
the saddest song - the ataris
i won't spend...night alone - the ataris
giving up on love - the ataris
screaming infedilities - dashboard confessional
safe in a crazy world - corrinne may
save me - corrinne may
mr brightside - the killers
drive - incubus
`donovan. |7:24 PM|
Thursday, September 22, 2005
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relationships are fragile. life's so much more less complicated without them. friendships are best.
`donovan. |10:32 PM|
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
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two teenagers are arrested, the police officer tells them they are entitled to one phone call.
sometime later a man enters the station and asks for them. "I suppose you're their solicitor," says the officer.
"no," the man replies. "i'm here to deliver the pizza."
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some friends rented a boat and went fishing on a lake. after they'd caught their fill and were heading back to the dock, one guy asked, "did you mark the spot where we got all these fish?"
"of course," his friend said. "i put a big white X on the side of the boat where we caught them."
"you idiot!" the first guy yelled. "what makes you think we can get this boat tomorrow?"
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leena was tired of her husband coming home drunk and decided to scare him straight. one night, she put on a devil costume and hid behind a tree to intercept him on the way home. when her husband walked by, she jumped out and stood before him with her red horns, long tail and pitchfork.
"who are you?" he slurred.
"i'm the devil," she answered.
"well come home with me," he said. "i married your sister."
`donovan. |5:29 PM|
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
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there's a feeling hanging in the air, and it's eating me alive. slowly.oh wow. great, my econs drq and case study. first off, drq: out of the 20 mark thing i left 8 marks blank at the end. yes 8 whole marks. that's nearly 50% of the drq. why? cause it tested MRP, something i didn't read about
at all. Like, the only thing i knew about it was that it stood for marginal revenue product, and that's all i knew. how the hell do you write something based on an acronym which you only know what it stands for and not even the freakin definition? well, my thoughts exactly.
i treated the case study as a gp essay. yeap, throw in some economic terms, some negative externalities, some injection-withdrawal facts and there's my case study. not very proud of that one either. at least the mcq was ok, think i'll end up with 20 marks which is a B grade. aiming for B for econs overall and crossing my fingers that it'll happen. though i probably will only end up with a D if i'm lucky. oops yeah.
i've been swinging around on the ends of a pendulum, from one extreme to the other. happy to reflective. talkative to silent. hardworking to lazy. peaceful to.. angry? dunno la. moving on to getting mired in the past.
sometimes it's so hard to see that we're not alone in this.well, i'm not letting this in this time. try to close the door on it, if only the best i can manage is to leave it ajar.
i burn letters that i write to you, to make you love me. at least i've my true friends around. and there's always dota. and there's me, myself and i haha.
music reflects the soul, and indeed it does. my latest playlist is somewhat a mirror of the extremities warring in me.
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free - corrinne may
reinventing your exit - underoath
come get some - rooster
tears - x japan
sanitarium - metallica
promise - matchbook romance
right side of the bed - atreyu
note to self: - from first to last
in this diary - the ataris
endless sacrifice - dream theatre
extraordinary - liz phair
open your eyes - alter bridge
try to stay alive, until i hear your voice. i'm gonna lose my mind someone tell me why, i chose this life. this superficial lie. constant compromise; endless sacrifice.
and it ends.
`donovan. |2:28 PM|
Sunday, September 18, 2005
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alright. for once i decided to exercise my lazy ass. so i ran.
1 lone runner
2 estates worth of running expanse Jurong East and West
3 traffic light stops
4 times seven's the time it took
5 chio buhs met along the way
6 kilometers approximately worth of distance
infinite stink after that. haha
but i didn't stop except for the traffic lights. and i believe i made good time. yeah, should do it more often.
`donovan. |10:25 PM|
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
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hmmm. i feel like.. there's nothing more to talk about. sure the exams are here. but duh, study la. play in between la. what else is there left to talk about? and what about s paper? screwed lo. how else to explain it.. bah. and dota? almost daily occurence already. curse bnet for making it so accessible to play with people.
and i feel like. it's all the same. in a way, can't wait for NS. at least there's the chance to experience the unity of a UGO again. at least i can finally tan, stupid fair skin. at least i can tone my body through forced exercise. maybe can get 6 pack huh? haha who knows. try to work towards it.
yeah. some things of the mind, of the heart never truly go away. but.. it's now possible to quash things. like the first time i experienced something so strong and consuming with such a high, but this time, i know when to pull back. i know you're around, stupid
emotions. you aint gonna screw around with me anymore. maybe just maybe i'll let it out one day, all out and either feel strongly again or i might just go on a killing spree. lol. dota or otherwise. i admit, (credit to james), you can't keep emotions shut up forever, you can't hold back everything with a iron dam, cause there will be cracks, holes to stop and it might just overflow. and when it does, it'll sweep you away. literally. ahhh, why am i rambling...?
to get to the point, it's this. the same old studies. same old shitty grades. same old games. same old friends. and then some. and the same old emotions. so much so that i don't feel like talking about it anymore. i feel like closing this blog... mmm. should i? i guess few people read what the hell i write about anyway. =| identity crisis in the middle of the prelims? unlikely. laziness to write? probably.
just might close it anyway. the hit counter hardly moves nowadays.
replies to tags:
joel: so have you found your team yet? haha, ok la. as long as there's an excuse to play with you and kill you in the name of teaching you.. no sweat.
pido: aiyah, i never bother asking you already. asking you is either a) get dissed off and say no money and screw off. b) get dissed off and say go study (which makes me feel guilty and wanna study too, for 5 mins) c) get dissed off. period. like the time you shouted at me cause i was playing the fool chiding you to come and you blew up on me about how people wanna study and all that shit and how my s paper made me arrogant (like what the hell???) and all that unrelated shit. so bottom line: i never ask you play lan anymore.
james khoo: if they come back i'll screw them with the double life-extinguishers again. i'm on the 20th floor anyways, how they fly up here to MY place is anybody's guess when they could have flown into the 19 storeys downstairs. 20th storey isnt exactly the lowest place in Singapore.
`donovan. |6:55 PM|
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die bitch die. it's dead. yay, one up for donovan versus the bugs. disgusting shit retreated to under the clothes rack to die. when i gassed it more. sadistically. gee, that's so pro-nazi. ahhh... the two insecticides really work. only problem is, my floor is all greasy from the insecticide now. ahhh, and there's the dead thing to dispose of. yuuuuucck....
`donovan. |12:14 AM|
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OH MY GOD. bloody big. roach. in my house... on the bloody glass of my sliding door of the balcony. which means, it's vertical. which means it's on the wall. which means it bloody FLIES. a flying roach, my worst phobia. shit. time to bring out the big guns: 2 insecticides. one to deal with flying insects, the other to kill roaches fast. double action should bring it down quick. disgusting shit.
`donovan. |12:10 AM|
Tuesday, September 13, 2005
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haha. i haven't been much troubled by prelims lei. it's like, ya it's there. it's quite big. eerm ya. and i don't study the night before for my papers so far? probably can pass my econs andlit so far, but i'm having doubts for the math paper since i haven't practiced at all. ok i admit, a
lil panic there, but lol, one would think that i'll be more panicky. ahh well. dota. and new handphone. and more dota. ahhhhhh... this is bad. to think after prelims i'm going shopping for a new bag. mmm anyone wanna come along? help me pick a nice one, my fashion sense is horrible. and.. dota after prelims. joel i'll take you on since you're so
pro now. =)
`donovan. |11:12 PM|
Monday, September 05, 2005
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i don't know what to write. but.
i concede there's a nagging feeling to blog, somehow. though i don't even know what to blog about. a possible sense of unease, just.. pulling at me. maybe its the past revisited. maybe i'm worrying too much of the future. maybe it's the screwed up revision i'm doing now, that's so way behind time. maybe. hmmmm.
something's bugging me. again.
`donovan. |10:30 PM|
Sunday, September 04, 2005
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hmmm. bloodseeker can be quite sick. but must get the item build and skill build right first.
first of all no idiot needs strygwyr's thirst so early. whatcha gonna do? chase him past his tower at lvl 3 so he can turn around at half health and frostbite you for first blood? don't be stupid. now, the skill bloodrage is an interesting one. it increases your damage exponentially. trust me, when used on yourself, your damage increases to a sick extent. a +12 damage became +97 easily. and that's when i used a screwed up item build using 2 robe of magis and 1 staff of wizardry. a proper item build like sange & yasha gave me +170 plus after empowering myself. however, the skill comes with a cost: the person it is cast upon is silenced and takes 8 damage per second at lvl 4. now used upon yourself at mid to late game the 8 damage drain shouldn't be a problem to you because of your third skill, bloodbath which enables you to suck an insane amount of life upon killing something. the silence is the clincher however, since after driving enemies off in melee combat likely the duration for the empower is still on and thus you cant rupture them for a finishing move. hence, the only way around this problem is probably to rupture them first, empower yourself and turn on MoM or use hyperstone to up your attack speed so that you can get them scared quickly and try to run, thereby taking more damage from rupture. this is the way you deal with strength heroes and agil heroes who do not have much in the way of nuking or use skills alot.
against agil or nuking intel heroes, the bloodrage skill should be employed differently. one should cast it on the enemy. true, they gain an increase in damage, but by silencing them, you have effectively cut off their main attack. knowing such heroes, they have low health too, making it unreasonable they try to stay and fight you using their suddenly enhanced attack. many do not even recognise they have been empowered anyway, panicking that they suddenly cannot windwalk (clinks), blink (anti-mage) or use any nuking spells (crystal maiden and slayer). the best part is, after bringing the fight to them melee and they decide to run, you can rupture them, further ensuring their death.
the bloodseeker, though at this moment quite grossly imba, actually finds it hard to go it alone or against two heroes. the bloodseeker usually has to dt or gank enemies. that's where his skills shine. whether it is bloodraging the friendly Tiny the stone giant or rupturing and dooming together with the doombringer, the bloodseeker fares better in a team battle, causing the enemies have to make shitty choices. it's die if they stay so that they do not take damage from rupture, die if they choose to run. the only time a bloodseeker can go it alone is if he is one v one and against an agil or intel hero preferably, and one that is damaged anywhere from near death to 3/4 life. empowering yourself (in which case you should rupture the enemy first) or empowering the enemy to silence him/her then casting rupture as they run to escape should be the way to go. if you find yourself fighting the enemy hero and some creeps, if you have placed points into bloodbath, take out enemy creeps to gain back life first.
i must make a note that the bloodseeker, since an agil hero should really play it cautious from level 1 to 6. any idiot can sap your life away now, and some spamming heroes can take you down. zues is just sick versus an early bloodseeker, while vs or even skeleton king with clarity pots can make your life hell as well. think with a mentality of a melee clinks when playing level 1 to 6 bloodseeker and you should do fine.
my skill build i've had moderate success with so far would be as follows:
lvl 1: bloodrage
lvl 2: stats
lvl 3: bloodrage
lvl 4: stats
lvl 5: bloodrage
lvl 6: rupture
lvl 7: stats
lvl 8: bloodbath
lvl 9: bloodrage
lvl 10: bloodbath
lvl 11: rupture
lvl 12: bloodbath
lvl 13: strygwyr's thirst
lvl 14: bloodbath
lvl 15: strygwyr's thirst
lvl 16: rupture
lvl 17: strygwyr's thirst
lvl 18: strygwyr's thirst
lvl 19-25: stats
items that might be good for bloodseeker include the following:
eye of skadi for increased overall stats and frost attack. the frost attack will make life even more hell for your opponent since he will be hard pressed to choose to stay and fight or run, in which case you can simply rupture and turn on your speed. the increased stats boost the fragile life of the bloodseeker too while also upping his mana base, something which he has problems with as well. in this sense, an AM is bloodseeker's worse enemy.
hyperstone or Mom will help alot, since it makes an empowered bloodseeker really powerful. MoM will complement and stack with your blood making it harder for the enemy to stay and fight to go toe to toe with you.
power treads is a must. combined with the strygwyr's thirst skill the bloodseeker is nigh unbeatable in terms of chasing speed. an AM with boots of travel and has blinked will be overtaken. trust me i've seen it happen.
sange and yasha will increase your damage, maim to slow down the opponent and give you Blazing Fast ability to run faster. also a no brainer.
burize and mkb will increase your damage which would combo well with your bloodrage skill. mkb is particularly sweet in this sense, because it also increases attack speed.
remember while you are a sick hero when playing bloodseeker, it is suicide to go it alone. you're as fragile as clinks so play it defensively unless you are sure of a kill. always cooperate with teammates and you'll do fine as bloodseeker. a particular pumped clinks almost took the game once, but was driven back and killed by me and a doombringer when we simultaneously casted our ultimates on him. he whined on messages sent to All before quitting.
this is my first guide here, and please offer constructive comments and not flame so that we can all learn and improve. please tag your comments.
hahahahahaha. wtf man. should be studying.
`donovan. |5:46 PM|
Friday, September 02, 2005
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It's 12th and Hyde on a Sunday
Feeling like we're gold
And we're nothing short of invincible
It starts again
Can you feel it?
It takes your breath away
Stop saying that we're invincible
Around and round, you're uninviting, unrewarding
And I'm misinforming you
Misinforming you
We all want to be, want to be somebody
Right now we're just looking for the exit
This is the way I would have done things
Up against the wall
Up against the wall
You got me up against your wall
This is the way I would have done things
Up against the wall
Up against the wall
You got me up against your wall
It's you and me on a Monday
The lies that we told
This is where we both go numb now
You broke my heart again this time
You're fading now you crossed the line
You crossed the line
We all want to be, want to be somebody
Right now we're just looking for the exit
-//reinventing.your.exit.underoath
`donovan. |8:34 PM|
