if you're reading this, you're either
a) visiting this blog for the first time
b) bored
c) trying to practice your reading skills
d) jeremiah marvelling at his genius
e) a retard who doesn't realise the symbols on the left are links
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
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1 year ago.
1 year ago, i was just finishing with orientation 05:2. 1 year ago, i was grappling with tying up the loose ends of council. 1 year ago, half the school gathered outside my class after school ended. 1 year ago, i used a teacher to escape from thatmob. 1 year ago, yu zheng and louis caught me in the toilet. 1 year ago, i
died. 1 year ago, someone said she wanted me
killed again cause she didn't get to see. *grin* 1 year ago, i was failing my subjects. (actually i still fail them.) 1 year ago, haha. i was
'struck'. i won't say it's love, neither will i concede it was as fleeting as a crush or infatuation.
1 year ago. so many things. happened. came and went. fights. bonds. emotional rollercosters.
i guess i came outta it, different. out of JC. matured? or jaded. examining the 'me' after i came out of SJI and now looking at the 'me' after CJC, i tend to get the feeling that i was real,
naive back then. about people. about studies. about relationships. heh, rest assured, i won't be making those mistakes again.
i started this post with intention to wrap up whatever i felt, about things that has happened, cliques of friends that i've joined and left, about the past two eventful years, about what's to come, but all i get now, is a sense of nostalgia, jadedness, and a laid back mood as i sift through the memories and feelings that flow past me.
i've lost track of what i wanted to say, or felt.
i deeply regret some actions i took in the past two years. council, among other things.
maybe i shouldnt have told you. maybe, i should have just shouldered everything. but could i live with myself everyday like that? i don't know. they say hindsight's 20/20. they're right. ah well. i seldom read your blog now, then again i suppose you don't even read mine. but i hope you're happy, quit being so sentimental and sad writing all the time. i like it better when you write about cheerful mundane stuff that happened, or when you're taking an argumentative stand on some current affair. maybe you're right, some things can't go back to how they were. they just can't. and maybe they shouldn't. but i hope they can. someday.
ns soon. hope i can make it to ocs. at least that way i'll get a zanpaktou, maybe can train hard enough to achieve shikai, maybe even bankai. =) in caseyou didn't know, those are terms from bleach. yup, i'm an official bleach fan now. must say, i didn't like anime before, but this one's got me hooked.
oh and one last thing. disclaimer, if you will. in the past, people have commented to me that i should be mindful of what i write onmy blog. it used to be about council. now it's just that some people are concerned? or unhappy with what i write here. look, my stand has always been this, if youdon't like it, don't read it. simple as that i don't force people to readit yeah.
happy birthday to me tomorrow.
`donovan. |1:30 AM|