Saturday, May 27, 2006
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post-bmt.]]
8th week of BMT next week. i didn't make marksman cause of the night shooting. so damn difficult. ah well. soon, it'll all be over. looking back, it seems just yesterday we were all blur and reporting to BMTC for the first time. all the shit we went through, the
tekan, the physical training, the shagged out days, the rare days of lectures and admin time, the route marches, the field camp, trench digging, situational test, live range, ippt tests, all are just drawing to a close. now i know what they meant when they said the enhanced batch of recruits have a short BMT, only 8 weeks long. the friendships we've formed have just begun to take form, and now, after a week and a half, we'll be split up again. some have dropped out of training along the way, they'll be downgraded in terms of PES status and end up as clerks or storemen. some will be posted as men to units, especially those who have indicated they do not wish to become commanders. the rest, will go to command school. some will be posted to OCS, majority will be posted to SISPEC.
i managed a IPPT silver. i've been improving, at least physically. i started out with about 5 pull ups when i entered BMTC, now i can do 13. i used to run a 12 min 2.4 km run before BMT, and now i've managed to break the 10 min mark, hitting 9:55. i'm sure i can shave off more from that timing. i somehow scrapped through a broad jump of 225cm to manage the bare minimum of silver, an improvement from my initial 216cm of a pass standard.
physically i'm getting there. but mentally? i've gotta question that, cause in army it ain't the physical that gets you through the shit. more often than not, you'll reachyour physical limit. that's when the mental power takes over. and i'm sorely lacking in that. only hope that if i make command school, hopefully OCS, my mental strength will become stronger in order to survive training.
i guess i always say i couldn't care less. that i couldn't be bothered with such stuff. that it doesn't affect me, after so many times, time and again, observing my friends and how they've managed to find ____. but you and i both know that's a lie.
mental strength, donovan. mental strength.
fuck it.
time to hit the road.
she's beautiful as usual with bruises on her ego
`donovan. |11:48 PM|
Sunday, May 21, 2006
[[
status report.]]
yeah. life is pretty good. got my letters from SMU and NUS. so i guess its SMU for me. always prefered it anyway. i know i'm gonna be leaving alot of friends behind though; most of them are going the NUS route. well, we always knew our paths would separate one day yeah.
i stepped on my glasses in field camp. net result, for two weeks i've been looking through lopsided, bent and scratched glasses. and overpowered degree, as was recently found out. when i saw the optician to make a new pair, found out my degree dropped from 450, 400 to 325, 300. so i guess that's pretty cool too.
sit test is over. no more damn jungles for me man. at least, not till BMT finishes la. go command school, surely can expect worse. but it's a relief for now. 2 more weeks to POP. yeah.
still coughing like some old man. but getting used to running and doing PT while sick. so i guess that's alright too.
everyone seems so far away. when you're in army.
talk to me man.
`donovan. |3:34 PM|
Sunday, May 14, 2006
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readingyournote,overagain.]]
i seldom update my blog during BMT, chiefly cause by the time i'm home, i'm so dead tired i couldn't be bothered to type anything down.
however since this has been a long weekend, by book in day, today, sunday, i've rested abit more than i usually have, you guys are so lucky to have an entry heh.
i just realised after field camp and all the vigorous activities and PT, i've lost weight. i didn't think it possible, after all i already am pretty thin and light, 60 kg to begin with. now i've lost about 2 kg or so, and my jeans has shrunk by about 2 sizes. on the plus side tho, losing all that excess weight, has toned my muscles and abs. so i say keep it coming man!
last week's training was pretty bad, what with the commanders stepping up training after field camp and all. everything's getting more physical, more as well as longer strength trainings, AGRs, 30-60 being upgraded to 60-120 and stuff. and judging from the training schedule things are only set to become even more packed. we have SOC, IMT, live range, grenade throwing, IPPT, more physical, BCCT, situational test, 12 km 16 km 24 km route march, all coming up packed into 3 to 4 weeks.
well, time to just grin and bear it. when things suck in the army, you can
a) suck thumb
b) call police
c)
lan lan just bear with it
all of which does nothing to change your situation of course. speaking of which, i pass out of BMT on the 6th june, an easy enough date to remember. 6/6/6 such an auspicious date to have my ceremony eh. mmm.
on another note, how can something so shallow last for so long?
if you guys (or should i say girls since all the guys are at army) are free, do sms or call me. life in the barracks gets very, very, very screwed up and sian.
`donovan. |12:58 PM|
