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Saturday, May 27, 2006 [[post-bmt.]]


8th week of BMT next week. i didn't make marksman cause of the night shooting. so damn difficult. ah well. soon, it'll all be over. looking back, it seems just yesterday we were all blur and reporting to BMTC for the first time. all the shit we went through, the tekan, the physical training, the shagged out days, the rare days of lectures and admin time, the route marches, the field camp, trench digging, situational test, live range, ippt tests, all are just drawing to a close. now i know what they meant when they said the enhanced batch of recruits have a short BMT, only 8 weeks long. the friendships we've formed have just begun to take form, and now, after a week and a half, we'll be split up again. some have dropped out of training along the way, they'll be downgraded in terms of PES status and end up as clerks or storemen. some will be posted as men to units, especially those who have indicated they do not wish to become commanders. the rest, will go to command school. some will be posted to OCS, majority will be posted to SISPEC.

i managed a IPPT silver. i've been improving, at least physically. i started out with about 5 pull ups when i entered BMTC, now i can do 13. i used to run a 12 min 2.4 km run before BMT, and now i've managed to break the 10 min mark, hitting 9:55. i'm sure i can shave off more from that timing. i somehow scrapped through a broad jump of 225cm to manage the bare minimum of silver, an improvement from my initial 216cm of a pass standard.

physically i'm getting there. but mentally? i've gotta question that, cause in army it ain't the physical that gets you through the shit. more often than not, you'll reachyour physical limit. that's when the mental power takes over. and i'm sorely lacking in that. only hope that if i make command school, hopefully OCS, my mental strength will become stronger in order to survive training.



i guess i always say i couldn't care less. that i couldn't be bothered with such stuff. that it doesn't affect me, after so many times, time and again, observing my friends and how they've managed to find ____. but you and i both know that's a lie.



mental strength, donovan. mental strength.


fuck it.

time to hit the road.


she's beautiful as usual with bruises on her ego


`donovan. |11:48 PM|