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Thursday, July 28, 2005 [[]]


oh. my. god. first time i log into friendster and see the downturned arrow next to most of my friends, which so called indicates a bad relationship with that person currently. while it isn't really true in the literal aspect, i guess it reflects how i've been feeling recently.

this is what my horoscope says: You know what you want, what you're willing to do for it, and you'll recognize it when it arrives. But until then, an act of Congress won't move you. Mention that if a young, inexperienced clerk insists on tailing you.

lol. i don't really believe all those arrows or horoscopes generally, but there's something to it. i'm not gonna sound all so loser-fied here or something, but shit man, this period seems to be a period of loss. i lost my academic equilibrium, now i'm struggling with alot of backdated assignments, homeworks and files to be handed up, not to mention must study for all the future mock tests and all. FOE for mid years is totally screwed up la. i lost contact somehow, with quite afew of my friends in CJ. somehow i just feel i aint talking to them right, if i talk to them at all. just feel that after all the dusts settles and stuff, i'm alone or something. crap la. this just feels like they dont bother talking to me already, or if they do its only for superficial stuff, like they dont give a shit anymore what happens beneath the surface.


actually now that i've written it out it kinda feels stupid. but damnit, if you care at all come up and talk to me la, or tag me, or write me a testimonial, or do SOMETHING. i'm just feeling insecure again.


<sub>here in this diary
i write you visions of my summer
it was the best i ever had
there were choruses and sing alongs
and that unspoken feeling
of knowing that right now is all that matters

all the nights we stayed up talking
listening to 80's songs
and quoting lines from all those movies that we love
it still brings a smile to my face

i guess when it coems down to it...

being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up
these are the best days ofourlives
the only thing that matters is just following your heart
and eventually, you'll finally get it right

breaking into hotel swimming pools
and wreaking havoc on our world
hanging out at truckstops just to pass the time
the blacktop's singing me to sleep

lighting fireworks in parking lots
illuminate the blackest nights
cherry cokes under this moonlit summer sky
2015 riverside, it's time to say goodbye.</sub>



you were never really there. and never really meant for me. but i'll survive. cause i'll try.


`donovan. |6:24 PM|